As I lie here with my beautiful baby girl snuggled into my chest as she sleeps, I feel incredibly grateful. I am thankful that I even get to write this post. I want to give hope to other moms who have a subchorionic hematoma because I had a subchorionic hematoma that threatened my pregnancy. Luckily I had a positive subchorionic hematoma pregnancy outcome.
When I first fell pregnant, I felt confident that I was going to have a healthy pregnancy. The thought of a miscarriage didn’t even cross my mind. I was initially so cocky and confident that I started to tell close friends and family that I was pregnant before I was even ten weeks.
I was eating a healthy diet and felt great before pregnancy, so I thought I would sail through my pregnancy. But pregnancy puts a significant demand on the body. Experiencing a subchorionic hematoma was the first hiccup along my pregnancy journey.
I was told by my doctor that subchorionic hematomas affect 3% of pregnancies which is common yet rare at the same time. The worst-case scenario is a miscarriage, but many hematomas resolve on their own, and women carry their babies till full term.
Having a subchorionic hematoma taught me to surrender to the process of the body. As a nutrition nerd, I am constantly researching leading-edge nutrition information and supplements to prevent various conditions. Still, I didn’t find much information about anything I could do to prevent and heal a subchorionic hematoma. Although I did find other moms online who had positive subchorionic hematomas pregnancy outcomes.
I also didn’t want to experiment with anything too much during pregnancy, but the one thing I did do is practice an attitude of gratitude. I felt like I had no control over the situation, and I just had to surrender and trust that if I were meant to have a healthy baby, I would.
The night of my threatened miscarriage came as a complete surprise. It was a typical evening where I felt a bit tired and nauseous but nothing out of the ordinary. My partner and I were headed out for dinner with me driving.
As we neared the restaurant, I felt a bit wet, almost like I had slightly peed myself when a strike of panic hit. I instantly sent love to my baby, hoping that maybe I had just peed somewhat and it was nothing to worry about.
After a couple of minutes, we arrived at our destination, and I parked the car. When I stood up to get out of the car, I felt a massive gush of warm blood. I looked down to find out that my pants were instantly soaked with a lot of blood.
As I looked down with shock and disbelief, I told my partner I think I am having a miscarriage. We need to go home.
As we drove home, the whole situation felt so surreal for me. I was excited about being pregnant and couldn’t believe that I was having a miscarriage. As my partner was upset, I remembered my sister telling me that the body will often miscarry if something isn’t right and that it is the body’s way of dealing with the situation.
I remember thinking if something isn’t right and it’s best for my baby to miscarry, then that is ok but if there is any chance that I have a healthy baby, let me be ok.
I got home and showered as my partner called a friend who had previously miscarried. Our friend said that it sounded like I was having a miscarriage and that I would start to cramp a lot and go to the hospital.
On the way to the hospital, I was still bleeding quite a bit and had mild cramping but nothing severe. Upon arrival, I was asked questions, had blood drawn, and waited in the shared waiting room for 4 hours.
As I sat in the waiting room, my bleeding had slowed down a bit, and the cramping did not worsen, yet I still felt like I was in this situation where I was likely to miscarry.
I felt like I had no control over the situation, but for the 2nd time in my life, I practiced mindset and gratitude for my desired outcome 100 percent. It was easy for the feelings of worry and anxiety to sweep over me and consume my thoughts. I decided that I was in a situation that warranted a miracle, and if there was any chance of me still having a healthy baby, I wanted it.
For 4 hours straight, I repeated the mantra I am grateful for a miracle and a healthy baby over and over in my head. It felt like I had a 50/50 chance of my situation going either way, so I focused all my thoughts and energy on being grateful for a miracle. I truly felt like I needed a miracle.
I repeated this mantra for 4-6 hours until my blood results came back and the doctor did an ultrasound.
A wave of relief and hope passed over me when I found out that our baby had a strong heartbeat and my pregnancy hormones were still high and within range.
Sometimes in life, you need a miracle, and this felt like one of those moments. I do not know if my mindset and mantra had anything to do with my outcome, but I learned that sometimes all we can do is surrender and put out as much positive energy.
The doctor informed me that I had a threatened miscarriage, but he believed I still had a healthy baby and pregnancy. I was discharged from the hospital with a referral to the early pregnancy center.
The next day I had my nine-week dating scan booked in, where it was confirmed that I had a moderate subchorionic hematoma. I was informed that it would most likely resolve on its own, that sometimes they last the entire pregnancy, and worst-case scenario, I had a possibility of miscarrying. The body is intelligent in determining if something isn’t quite right and will terminate the pregnancy. It is nature’s way of dealing with it, and there is nothing you can do, the sonographer told me.
I was still a bit nervous after my ultrasound, but I had hope and a good feeling for whatever reason. Even so, I still had to surrender and trust the process and my body. Surrender and trust helped me let go of the feelings of fear, worry, and anxiety that are not beneficial.
As our babies are inside us, they are exposed to our feelings and hormones, so I did my best to feel good and trust that everything would be ok.
At my 13 week scan and morphology scan, our baby was growing and progressing right on target. Yet, the subchorionic hematoma had still not resolved and only shrunken by the smallest amount.
Many women who have a subchorionic hematoma in the first trimester have a resolution or significant decrease in size by the morphology scan, but not in my case.
I decided not to worry about it since the baby was ok and growing perfectly. It wasn’t until my late third-trimester scan that no hematoma was detected.
Researching and finding other moms with positive subchorionic hematoma pregnancy outcome stories gave me hope. Pregnancy brings all sorts of surprises with ups and downs. I hope that my story inspires you to surrender, trust, accept and put the best feeling vibes out for a healthy pregnancy and baby.
It is a miracle that our bodies know how to grow a baby. When things go sideways, sometimes all we can do is trust the body’s innate wisdom and the miracle of life. Pregnancy brought me several surprises such as being diagnosed with gestational diabetes yet despite my setbacks I came out to the other end with a gorgeous baby girl and overcame each hiccup after learning something new.
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